hooo buddy. i have been touching so much grass. and also dealing with some of the worst interpersonal bullshit i have ever experienced.
i may like hearing about drama and messiness but i do not tolerate drama in my own relationships. im kinda notorious for ruthlessly cutting people off if i even get a WHIFF of a red flag. unfortunately, it is based on trust issues so ive been working on trusting people more.
which has totally bit me in the ass now 🙃
but life is balance so i just need to find that sweet spot between not trusting anyone and how far i am willing to flex my own boundaries in relationships. and the past 2 years, i think ive really got a grasp of those boundaries. okay. maybe not completely but ive had alot of practice navigating that LMAO
and what im trying not to do is just completely isolate now. ill isolate a lil bit, lol. but not much. ANNDDDD ill use the isloation to focus on some hobbies ive been neglecting! like clothing alteration and Dance Dance Revolution.
BUT ENOUGH ABOUT SAD LIFE STUFF
im currently doing a Halloween movie marathon to lift my spirits. but its not ghosts movies.. ITS VAMPIRES!!
vampires are defintiely number one on Ash's Top 5 Favorite Supernatural Monsters list. i honestly would become a vampire if i could, even with all the drawbacks like never seeing the sun again.
some of these ive seen but i tried to pick ones that would be new to me.
Vampire Halloween 2025 🧛
- Van Helsing (2004) (watched 10/04/25): i thought it was a lil silly to have the addition of Frankenstein but it was a fun movie nonetheless. it gave me Batman & Robin and Batman Forever vibes (which are my favorite Batman movies hahaha). best way i could describe it is if a comic book came to life, but not in a modern Marvel type of way. think the Batman movies i mentioned or Toby Maguire Spiderman. i LOVE that type of movie atmosphere
- Blade (watched 10/09/25): i had seen this before but i forgot how much i loved this movie. and dont even get me started on the music in the opening scene! i could listen to that on repeat forever.
- Nosferatu (2024) (watched 10/12/25): literally no notes. kino. absolute cinema. the camera shots? fuck. the story? yes. the commentary on misogyny? everything. just watch it.
- Dark Shadows
- From Dusk til Dawn
- Salem's Lot
- Byzantium
- Underworld
- The Last Voyage of the Demeter
- Only Lovers Left Alive
- Cronos (1993)
- Vampire Hunter D
- Thirst (2009)
- Dracula (1992)
- The Lost Boys
ill update this as i watch and add some comments about each movie. super excited to get into the Halloween season, its one of my favorite holidays 🎃
thats all i got for now, see ya on the flip side 🤙